So where do I begin? I have so many things going on in my head, I need somewhere to jot it all down.
Since I have so much time on my hands nowadays, I need to make sure I take full advantage. It is crazy to think about how many things I didn’t get to do with working at my last job. It makes sense about why I was so depressed. I was missing out on life and everything it had to offer.
At this moment in my life, I’m trying to find inspiration in anything and everything. I’m reading different books, watching movies, documentaries, researching, reading various articles, learning different skills, planning trips…etc. I’m keeping busy. I’m in search of a passion I can seriously dive into. When I was growing up, I had this dream of being a famous singer. But when I realized no matter how much I practiced and how much I wanted it, I didn’t have that God given talent that was going to deliver me my first big break. Maybe that was the first part of me accepting myself and moving on. But that was the only time in my life that I was truly gung-ho about a career decision. Every other career choice I worked towards was always the back-up plan, then the back-up back-up plan, and you know where the story goes from there.
But after all of those different paths I decided to take on, one thing I wanted to eventually work towards was being my own boss. Mainly, I want to own my own restaurant. And I still plan on doing that someday but I know even if I had the money to invest in something so risky, that I am completely not ready to do that. It would fail tremendously. There is still so much out there that I need to learn and I know if I take every opportunity to do so, it’ll come in time.
I have also used this time to find inspiration in other women. It is 2017 and although more women are coming into power, we are still trailing behind. Donald Trump beat Hilary for the presidency and people are becoming shittier than ever before. I’ve never been your common girly-girl but I haven’t enjoyed being a woman this much before. I don’t consider myself a feminist (because there’s a ton of shit, i’ll let the boys handle) but I embrace being a woman whole heartedly. And maybe I feel this way because i’ve experienced gender discrimination first hand and the fact that I chose not to play the gender card in my last position, made me the bigger man. But the gender gap..it exists.
So I am taking this opportunity as a blessed American citizen to do everything in my power to bridge this gap. I will educate myself on as much as I can. Fill my brain with ideas and experience that will lead me to my brilliant idea (whatever that may be) to change the world for the better. I plan on coming out on top and not let my breasts get in the way…unless I can use them to my advantage (which would be completely different story..and probably not the one I want).
So this is the ending to chapter 1. Keep on reading to journey with me on how I end up changing the world….
“Men are not the enemy, but the fellow victims. The real enemy is women’s denigration of themselves.” -Betty Friedman